2016-09-28

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2016-09-28 12:01 pm

explanation of non-benefits

So this here is my blog that I have set up for Mental Health purposes. It will be self-indulgent and self-pitying and I will use it to give myself way too much credit for overcoming my bullshit fears, so you probably shouldn't read it. But the fact that someone out there could theoretically be masochistic enough to read it gives me more motivation to post, which is why I'm putting it on this public forum.

My brain thinks I'm the worst person in the world and you probably should too.
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2016-09-28 12:05 pm

a dick shuns

I am badly, badly addicted to the Internet. Or, arguably, I am addicted to reading. I have spent literally about sixteen hours today mainlining words off news sites, Reddit, wikis, and anything else I can find, with occasional breaks to play stupid phone games (and sometimes slightly intelligent phone games, as if that's better.) This habit is why I am the worst person in the world. I have been addicted to reading since I learned to read, pretty much.

Things I am avoiding right now:

- providing extremely simple $workthing to $colleague1 who has been waiting for it for three weeks
- providing marginally more complicated $workthing to $colleague2 who has been waiting for it for three *months*
- paying bills
- booking plane tickets for Christmas
- booking hotels for $conference
- booking plane tickets for $businesstrip
- making an appointment with my new personal trainer
- sending out invites for a board game night
- turning in 2 weeks of timesheets
- probably a bunch of other shit because I am the worst person in the world

I DID manage to make an appointment to get $medicalprocedure done. That is a thing I have been putting off for ages and I did it today, so go me.

Tomorrow perhaps if I put my mind to it I can book plane tickets for $businesstrip and finish $simpleworkthing. TBH, though, I should probably think smaller. Can I open up the travel website? Can I copy and paste some numbers from one file to another for $workthing? Can I successfully spend five minutes alone with my thoughts?

Tune in next time. Or don't. I advise don't.